feeling the fight…

It’s felt like a fight today… to keep the faith…

Everything feeling difficult… wrestling with defeatist thoughts… flesh wanting its own way…  a critical spirit taking the upper hand…

Then I remember… my battle is not against flesh and blood… not even my own flesh… it’s a spiritual battle waging war against me…

A battle I need to be prepared for… each day… ready to fight…

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. …

Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end, keep alert with all perseverance…

Ephesians 6:10-11, 14-18 ESV

I’m just not sure I’ve done a great job today…

Grateful… yet again… for His grace…

[Note… I looked up the definition of defeatist in Merriam-Webster’s… wanting to be sure it said what I was trying to say…

Looking at the page… the words following… also summed up the day…

spiritually disfigured… needing to be free from impurity… imperfect in every way…

However… it did make me smile… so many words to define what it’s like… feeling the fight… of faith…]